A lover of the nature

Tuesday, December 1, 2015

Its midnight
and I am walking down a lonely road
staring at the moon and counting stars
trying to find the pattern in their movements
that coincides with mine.

I might look like a ghost
a lonely soul searching for an answer
but no I am not lost
I am just an explorer
and a lover of the nature
trying to find the hidden treasure
that lies within
an old tattered box
somewhere by the bosom
of the mother Earth
hidden just for the child like me
who would preserve it
rather than trying to find the ways
to exploit it further.

The crispy mornings and the burgundy evenings
call out to me
and I can hear the whisper of breeze
and feel the blessings of sun
the shelter of cloud
and see the invitation of the sky
to fly high.

The kisses of rain that showers on me
makes me dream of eternity
among the lush green lea
and the sighs of proud trees.
I drink the dewdrops from the leaves
play hide and seek with the fog
I dance with the tune of wind
and jog along with the storm.

yeah I know I sound crazy
A romantic fool as it seems
But I dont deny that I am a fool
I am in love with the moon
I am in love and I nurture
this love of mine for my nature.

Why is it with you??

why is it with you
I feel alive
even the numbness from the cold
becomes a comfort zone
and the stiffness
melts away.

why is it with you
the distance does not matter
I dont need you to be with me
even knowing that you are so far away
I feel that you are 
Living in me.

why is it with you
I find various reasons to smile
even when there is so much
happening around me
breaking me down
bit by bit.

why is it with you
momentary craziness
means much more to me
than the everlasting tranquility
and violent vendetta.

why is it with you
I laugh at nonsensical jokes
pour down my frustration
and feel
that those depressing notions
are just my virtual entities
and being with you is real...so real.

why is it with you
i feel drunk
even when there isnt a single drop of alcohol
running through my veins
why is it with you
I find me
my lost essence
Why??? Oh!!! Why???

Once upon a time

Far away once upon a time
There was a castle of dream
With diamond turrets and golden glow
And there lived the king
Of mighty power, equivocal strength
Who laid among moonbeams
But all alone….all alone
A darkened soul it seemed.

One day came a gypsy boy
Travelling along the way
He had heard of lonely king
And thought to save the day.
He asked king to choose a wife
And break through the curse
Choose a queen among all
Who can sing a verse
Of magic that would break away
The darkness, guilt and remorse.

The news spread all over the kingdom
That the king is searching a wife
Who can sing like a nightingale
Whose voice is full of life
Parents came with their daughters
From far far away
And then there was this maid
Working with the hay.

The maid worked in the same castle
Where lived the king
She cooked, she washed, she cleaned
And she loved to sing
She was just a plain maiden
Stoutness was her thing
Yet she loved his majesty
Dreamt of wearing his ring.

Then there was her beautiful sister
Who shone like a gold
With golden tresses and sweet smile
Also calculating and bold
She had her clothes done
With everything else sold
Extracted a promise from her sis
Their relation would not be told.

A ball was then announced
Every fair maiden were present
All of them were asked to sing
The verses given to them
Then there was that maid
Doing as she was asked
She wore the green taffeta
Her face concealed and masked.

She sang her verses well
The song rang through the hall
The king was mesmerised
With a smile, he stood tall.
The search was over by then
Choice made, conclusion reached.
At the time of announcement
The sisters were then switched.

Unknown to this switching
The king chose his queen
Unmasked the golden girl
Who wore lemon green.
The maid in the shadow
Shed some silent tears.
She attended to her duties
Forgetting the ring
Subordinating the dreams of hers
To the happiness of king.

She decorated the queen’s room
Cleaned mirrors so high
She looked at her own image
And gave out a sigh.
‘’No I’ll never be a beauty
I’ll never catch his eye.’’

Resigned to her fate
She started cleaning the slate.
She knew with time
The queen’s heart will grow fonder
And she might even love the king.
And herself a creature in the shadow
Will always remain a maid

A maid who loved to sing.

Just know that I am fine

Whenever out of the blue
You remember something I did
And smile
Just know that I am fine.

Whenever you dream at night
And try to remember the next morn
If you recall even a fragment of it
Just know that I am fine.

Whenever you have that itch
To write some words or verse
Even if you come up with nothing
And say you would try it the next time.
Just know that I am fine.

Whenever you have an outburst
But overcome it with calmness
And say “thank god it didn’t get worse”
Just know that I am fine.

Whenever you get what you want
Gain all that you deserve
Share that happiness with loved ones
And pause to think of me
Just know that I am fine.

Whenever you console someone
Make them smile off their tears
The laughter that you share
Will be carried off to me
And deal with my nightmares
Whenever that happens my friend

Just know that I am fine.

now that I am leaving

I took some flowers
Made a bouquet
A gift of my affection
And lots of congratulations
Of best wishes for coming days
But I couldn’t send it to you
The blooming flowers withered
Its freshness lost somewhere
I can neither save it nor throw away
And I have nothing to say
Now that I am leaving…

I selected some words made a song
With love stored up within me
A token of my appreciation
And lots of attention
Of best wishes for your happiness
But I couldn’t sing it to you
The music lost its magic
Its melody lost somewhere.
I can neither share nor sing it

Now that I am leaving.

somewhere along the way

I was walking alone
Dejected, devastated
Dwindling down the dirty road
Dragging the miseries along.
Though I had a torch in hand
The darkness seemed to grow some more
With every seconds that passes
Bringing me closer to the inevitable end.
When it god hard to move
When I stumbled down
I tried crawling
Searching for a reason to live.
And somewhere along the way
I found you.

I was trying to draw water
From a dried up well
I was trying to lure a cat
Instead I untied the bell
And like a broken shell
And moving through hell
I got used to it.
Used to the nostalgic hazy memories
Used to broken dreams
Used to the passive passions
And pacifying purgatory.
But when it got hard to move
And I fell down
I tried standing up
Searching for ways to laugh
And somewhere along the way

I found you.

I am breaking free

Below the street light at a bus stop
I am reflecting
Turning over the pages of the past
And puffing out smoke.
I am looking at the cigarette
Burning my hands
I let it burn my lungs too.
And reflect.
It seems as if the memories
Good ones though
Are the one backing me off
Towards the darkness that I crave.

And YOU, my friend
Giving me company,
Are trying to pass off
Some of that light you have to me
And I appreciate it
I do really.
You are trying to let me see
That every ending
Is a beginning of a new journey
A new story.

And now I am stealing
Some of the colours off flowers
Some lights off the sun
And painting my dreams.
See I’m moving
No I’m running
Towards the future that I deserve
Towards ecstasy.
I am breaking free
Yeah!!!! Finally!!!

I am breaking free.

have I lost the reason to smile??

I look at the smiling faces of people
All around me is jokes and joy
And with them, here I am all alone
Trying to hold onto the fragments
Of their conversation
And then I realise
I can’t hold onto the joy
Have I lost the reason to smile????

There are so many stories here
Every eye speaks of something within
Every faces have their own worry lines
Still there is smile
Still there is a reason to hold
Yet here all alone
Like a lonely soul
I try reading them; try being a part of them
Searching belongingness; somewhere out of nothingness.

But then I didn’t know
That the emptiness within me is so acute
That I can’t be where I am
And can’t feel anything within.
Have I lost the reason to feel???
Have I lost the reason to fly??
Have I lost the reason to smile??

Even mundane talks has so much fun
That’s what everybody says
Try simplifying all the matters
And then you will see
Everything there is to see
I have heard it repeatedly
I have tried embracing it.
Tried to run, stumbled down
Back on my feet, I tried again.

Moving out of my comfort zone
I tried breaking free
And look at me now!!!!
You can see just the shell of me
Even those freedoms of few moments
Have become burdens so difficult to carry
And so hard to hold on
And here I am walking alone
Searching for a reason to belong
Searching for a reason to fly

Searching for a reason to smile.

I see nothing

Whenever I close my eyes
And try to recall your face
To hold onto the good memories
We have ever had
I come up with nothing.

Whenever I try smiling
Thinking about the dreams I have had
To recall how I have been
Cheerful and joyful being
I just find emptiness
And I feel nothing.

Whenever I try holding on
To the fence I adored
As a child, as a girl
I find it broken
And nobody is there to mend it
And I find nothing.

Whenever I try writing
Of love, of life
Of flowers, moon, butterflies
I look at the world outside
All I see is black and white
And I can think nothing.

Whenever I search for colours
And bursts of laughter
Pretty smiles, lovely voice
My eyesight gets dimmed with time
And though I say I’m fine
I see nothing.

I will be your hope

Try opening up the Pandora's box
and unlock all the grief
release them into the world
and when the joy, the happiness 
ceases to exist
and darkness envelopes everything
in the fog.
From somewhere a light you'll see
illuminating the dark corners
and hope will start germinating.
With alacrity
grab onto it
then and only then you'll know
what a true happiness means.
Then the smile that comes off
will illuminate your soul
when that happens my friend
waving goodbye to the darkness
a candle will burn
and carrying that candle
I'll be walking towards you.
That's when you will find me.
That's how you will find me
smiling at you
and the world in general
embracing you
and disposing off
the Pandora's box again.

walking down the stairs

Even when the ecstasy has faded
and the memory of your voice has become non-existent
still comes a thought
from somewhere within
that you are walking the same way,
doing the same thing,
living the same life that we used to talk about.
And now when you are gone, here all alone
I am walking down the stairs where I first saw you
I am living those memories and remembering you.
Even when the book has been closed
I often turn over the pages of the same chapter
and re-read them (again and again)
and there comes a thought
that you are not
so far away from me than I thought you would be
I see you smiling
your life seems beautiful like it ought to be
Though you are gone, here all alone
I am walking down the stairs where I first saw you
I am living those memories and remembering you.

For me you are mine


Travelling through the dark
searching for my identity
i get tired and lonely
and you with your sweet smile
light up my world.
Your tiny fingers curled up around my hair
Your tiny palms caressing my face
as if you are trying to relocate me
in your 8 months old memory.
This feeling of contentment that you give me
This meaning of life that you show me
These little moments of joy I have in your presence
make it up for every seconds
of torture that I have to go through.
When you cry and call me out
when you fall down and reach for me
when u smile seeing me
and when you kick me with your tiny feet.
I feel happy to live
I feel happy that I have you
lighting up my life
like that faraway moon lights up the night
and gives me a reason to dream.
I love you from my heart
I love you from my soul
I eagerly waited for you to utter your first word
I eagerly waited for your first crawl
I am waiting for you to walk on your feet
walk with your arms wide towards me
oh angel!! How u shine
I adore you darling
though I didn't carry you for the months of nine
whomever your genes might belong to
gor me you are mine..
Oh Syona!! For me you are mine.

Dying Young

The light breaks through the dawn
and I am here with my curtains closed
letting the last remnants of the darkness
envelope me in its cacoon.
I don't want to break free
I am comfortable enough in cold.
I know I look steady
but I'm trembling within.
Still i crave the cold
coz i feel
if I am numb enough
i wouldn't feel
and may be it would help me heal.
I know I am still that child
standing in a dark corner and crying.
I know I am still that frightened soul
afraid to face the light
as it might illuminate everything
that I have kept hidden within me
and thus the darkness is
the only friend I see.
I know might be wrong
but I dont want to be strong.
Let me be, I am dying young.

I will stop missing you

Let me cry for a few more days
let me hold onto u for a while 
and then I'll be fine
with every tears i shed
i will get u out of my system 
with every songs i write
i will get u out of my system
with every sleepless night
with every beat of heart
i will stop missing u
gradually
and hope someday
you will remain in me
like a beautiful dream i lived
and not this painful reminder of loss.

A stranger I know

Do I call him a child??or a man??
I don't know.
He is a man of his own means
but the child within is still dominant it seems.
Oh yes!!! He is mature enough
he knows the world, he has seen it
moved through it.
But it seems he has yet to learn
survival in the mist of retreat
and struggle that goes on
along the submerged coast.
I don't know much of him
he is still a ghost to me
and what I say is what I see
I can tell you one thing though
he smiles like a sunglow
sugary sweet, a stranger I know...
Do I call him a friend??or an enemy??
I don't know
he is neither my enemy nor my friend
A,stranger he is and so shall he remain
he teases you mercilessly through your tears
and grins without a trace of regret
he will let you open up
yet keep himself bound in cage.
Mysterious?? No he seems not
Conversationalist ?? Yes definitely.
Well the real him, well I've yet to see
who he is I've yet to know
what I know is what he shows
I can tell you one thing though
he wouldn't let you feel low
and ask you to go with the flow.
Exasperating, a stranger I know

good night

Saturday, November 14, 2015

moody madness made memorable floric fun flirts around night nimbles nip by nip sleep sails sound n sweet
god graces goodnight dandelion dreams waves welcome

besmeared virtue

Chaste chalice, what I if not be?
A fair maiden, though a nymph to thee
how hast thou fared? and how I be
besmeared
virtue
beneath
unscathed
authority...
Though clandestine, seems it to me
thy world knows and bows to thee
wench drenched in the mystic rain
of scandal, tale thy world claims
verses of love, am I now?
Do tell if worldly I ought to be
Fallen feathers is all I see
besmeared
virtue
beneath
unscathed
authority......

Beware I am scary

oh this heavenly smell of
earth
....below the crust n just above
the core
....i am the
volcano
....embrace me n u r
DEAD

.......my arms might strangle u
and breath might scorch u

..I .am not a
torch

...I am a blazing fire
....
Beneath the space and above the
sky

.....I am the vacuum...
 Inhale me i will
take your life..... 

With a venom on my
spirit i seek u out
....
bloodthirsty me
bone-weary
 your battered soul that i
feed on.... 

Kneel down bow to
me....
Acknowledge your death...NOW

A woman with an attitude

Ask me and I'll strip for you
Pay me and I 'll dance nude
They call me prostitute
but I call myself a performer
an entertainer
I exchange pleasure
with those who seek me out
I feed their hunger
They might call me obtuse
But I call myself a woman with an attitude.
I can be a party thrower
I can be a show stopper
I might not know them as a whole person
but I know most of their secrets
that they share in the aftermath
of the pleasure I give them
They call me a whore, a mistress
But I call myself magical
who gives them the taste of immorality
and lock them in a trance of heaven
They might call me obtuse
But I call myself a woman with an attitude.
I am somebody's first fantasy
I am also somebody's forbidden dreams
I am definitely the first of many young men
who come lolling their tongues
for the first taste of forbidden vintage
I am a teacher
who help them.learn
the ancient language of love.
They might call me a sinner
But I call myself a lover, a giver
bestowing upon them
the means of satiation
They might call me filthy shit
But I am not ashamed of it.
They might call me obtuse
But I call myself a woman with an attitude.

Goodbye in whispers...

She opened the curtains, stared outside
the dark night and few scattering lights
beckoned her
her warm brown eyes looked stormy grey
the shine on it lost somewhere
yet moist irises could be seen
she had been shedding some silent tears
she looked at the starry sky
and remembered....yeah remembered....
She remember all those wistful dreams
she remembered all those wistful sighs
she remembered shared fantasies
she remembered those whispers, those smiles
by ten it had been his last call
once again she dialled his number
and stopped herself
she had promised, promise not to be weak
she had promised she wouldn't stall
and he is gone she knows
she knew it, her mind did
and her heart??...what of it???
Shivering in the cold she recalled
the warmth of his smile
the soothing caress of his voice
and how she had craved it
and dreamed of having it all.
She regretted not having hugged him once
but she had known
he had never been hers to hold
yet she remembered the feel of his hand
that gentle touch
that comforted her, took away the pain
at least she got to hold his hands
a memory enough to last long
a memory enough....
She plugged in the songs he sang to her
and closed her eyes, she savoured
his voice
and out of the blue she remembered
remembered the promise, promise she made
to him, to herself
songs deleted messages too
but what could she do
of those memories
of that face
which stayed as an imprint in her memory???
Broken down she crossed tge threshold
she tried getting lost in fog
she let the wind bite her skin
so that she wouldn't feel so much
yet numbness couldn't erase him.
Hours passed yet she stood outside
in the dark chilly night
hugging herself shedding tears
saying goodbye in whispers
hoping that the breeze
would carry it off to him
along with her feelings
and caress his warm skin
in his sleep
in his dreams..

:) :) :) SMILE :) :) :)

A very dear friend of mine wrote it...haha not for me but i so wish it had been for me..anyways i fell in love with this poem and so couldn't help from storing it in my journal.


When life pulls you down
Makes you beg for a moment of happiness
A moment of joy…until you get so tired
Remember you have a friend
who will give you a reason to smile…

When pain grips you, brings you down on your knees
Until you no longer can breathe
Remember you have a friend
who will give you a reason not to grieve.

When anger/ love clouds your judgement
Like it does to everyone including me
Remember you have a friend
who will help you see.

When you have done all that is needed to be done
Travelled places that you have always wanted to
Met people and mesmerised them like you did to me
And if you ever feel lonely
You don’t have to walk a mile
Remember you have a friend just a thought away
Spreading his arms wide

Waiting to greet you with a smile….. J J J J

Let me sleep

Night screams with me at the dawn break
And breaks into pieces those desires I have
Cause the light that comes with the morning
Brings with it the reality I am born with.

The dream become nuisance, the wishes seems futile
The chances of survival seems so deem
That I wonder what’s next now
Will I survive?? Will I die???
I am tired of anticipating the outcome
Tired of believing in myself
Tired of circle of needs and wants
And tired of defending myself
So just let me sleep now

Just let me sleep.

Come take me home

Momma !! let me rest again
Rest my head on your bosom
Momma let me brush off
All those tears you shed.
I know I have been bad
I could never be the daughter you wanted
I smoked, I drank, I kicked etiquette
I ignored you, I showed my attitude
But momma!! I’m trapped in dark
Inside this enchanted castle of immorality
I see the moon far away
And the windows are locked
Barred to me
I am caged in insanity
And I know you are the only one who can guide me to light.
Momma!! Give me your hand
Reach me out, once again find me..
I am lost….I am lost
I crave your love, I crave your touch…
Momma!! Do you hear me??
Do you hear my plea???
Your child is innocent no more
Your child is now a corrupted soul
Fallen, hurt by ineptitude
Bleeding, crying, calling out your name
Momma!! I know you are disappointed in me
I know I hurt you
But now I promise I will make it up to you
Just let this moment of insanity pass
Help me deal with it
Help me make you love me again…
If only….if only you knew how much I love you…..
I am still the child that you held
Carried nine months in your womb
Albeit rumpled and corrupted
Still you can find the traces of old me…
Momma!! Please momma!!
Let me rest in your bosom
Let me brush off the tears you shed
Let me once again rest my head
Let me hug you again
Hug me like you used to
Love me like you used to
Help me dream again..
Momma!!! Here I feel so numb
Momma!! Please come take me home.

will make it up to you

What I lack in beauty, I make it up with duty
What I lack in style, I make it up with smile.
I dont wear high stiletto heels
rather I developed my height of skills
I may not have that killer figure
yet my words will give you warmth and pleasure.
I may not be sexy and smart
but I assure you I have a good heart.
I may not be sizzling hot
but stone-cold?? No I'm not
Elegance I may not possess
but I do have my own taste
My plain-ness might not make your heart beat
But I can make for you desserts so sweet.
I might not ever create that mood
but come on just once taste my food
I may not be your usual bomb
but I can make your house a home.
What I lack in face I make it up with grace
What I lack in style, I make it up with smile.

Then came you

Never thought about karma
Never thought I wouldn’t achieve
Whatever I wish to be.
I broke few things, few hearts
But nothing I couldn’t fix or make
The weather had never been calm,
But nothing that I couldn’t take.
Then came you
As a lightening that strikes the soul
And ignite all the forbidden dreams
As a breeze before the storm
And left me with a tingling skin.
The rope slipped from my hand
And the kite flew away
Soaring high
Up above the sky
Leaving boundaries, weaving dreams
And here I am standing
Watching it fly
Towards you
Without any means to stop it.

I stood as a bystander
Of this course my heart took
And though there were many boundaries
I crossed them, stepped on them
And followed my heart
Which led me to you.
I know I shouldn’t wish
I know I shouldn’t reach out.
There are many things holding me back
Yet madness is where I’m out and about.
Even knowing it I can’t let you go
I am not ready yet
I need to hold you once
I need to rest my head
And feel your heart beat for me.
I need your smile, yeah I need to see
So before I leave, leave you for good
I need a moment to remember you by
So before I leave, leave you for good
Will you give me a final goodbye???

youuuur smile

Friday, November 6, 2015

Every time you smile
I leave a part of me with you
Your smile locks in me the joy
That comes forth as a smile
On my lips.
Throughout the vigorous beating of heart
And trembling limbs
I watch you silently through the door
Waiting for you to turn your head
And smile at me
That leaves me craving for more, even more.

I wish I could shout out loud
I wish I could acknowledge it
Carve you in my memory
And leave this game
Of hide and seek.

From a corner I watch you move
I wait and wait for a glimpse of you
Though I can’t hold, I can’t kiss you

When I don’t see you, I really miss you.

I don't dwell in fantasies

There’s a wall between us
A wall so strong
And no one can break it down
There’s a mile between us
And I can’t reach you
Or cross this distance
Even when you are
Just by my side.
You are the forbidden fruit
That I can’t taste
Yet I’m being induced
By the green serpent
But I’ll not bow down, I’ll not try
I’ll not dream of you and me
As it was never meant to be
And I don’t dwell in fantasies.

Why fall in the lake
When you know that the water runs deep
And you might drown??
Why enter into the storm
When you know the force is strong
And you are in it all alone??
All I’m allowed is sneak-peek
Discreet glances and smile
All I’m allowed are few moments
And savour it for a while..
So I’ll not bow down, I’ll not try
I’ll not dream of you and me
As it was never meant to be

And I don’t dwell in fantasies.

A dreamer?? Yes I am

The thunderclaps calls me in
Your trembling lips are inviting
The rain sparkles
Like a dew drop
On your luminous skin
And I wish I could be that rain
I won’t even mind falling
From the clouds
To reach you
And melt away.

The cold winter nights, so lonely
And I see you shivering
The fog moves about
Caressing your skin
And I wish I could be that quilt
I wont even mind rolling
With you on the bed
And share my heat.

Wondering is all I can do
Seeing that lovely rosy hue
I know I’m in love with spring
When the flowers bloom
And the treasure of juicy nectar
Calls out to all the bees in hive
I, a lonely drone,
Up all alone
Stare at you
Waiting and waiting……

Oh! Yes I dream, I dream all night
I dream of you, I dream of light
And in my dream yes I do love
Though here right now I can’t speak up
Can’t confess what I feel
Though I wish I could steal
You away from you
And make you mine
And create a tale so divine.

Call me a dreamer, call me a fool
I accept that I’m fool for you
So wherever this foolishness leads
I will follow
I won’t even mind
The thorns scattered
Or being torn and tattered.
I will crawl to you if I must

And die happily in your arms.

Secret that I can't tell

Sunday, October 11, 2015

I am here in the arms of somebody
Trying to hold onto my old life
Joining back the pieces of old dreams
That seems so fake day by day.
And there you are with somebody else
Starting your life anew
It was meant to be I knew
Yet I couldn’t stay away.
Watching you go saying goodbye is hell
You are my secret that I can’t tell.

I don’t know when it started
You started to mean more to me
On a desperate attempt to hold me back
I turned the locks in and threw the key.
But even the doors of past
Even the reality of future
Turned out to me meek, do fragile
I pushed everything out of my thoughts
And embraced these feelings for a while
This road between right and wrong is hell
You’re my secret that I can’t tell.

Those lullaby songs that you sang to me
Those nightly whispers weren’t meant to be
I paved my own way towards my doom
And you are about to become a groom
I have somebody waiting for me
With somebody else you are meant to be
But these dreams just won’t go away
Even when in them I can’t dwell.
The reality where I live in is hell
You’re my secret that I can’t tell.

So here’s the end of those lovely dreams
So here’s the end of the lovely tale
of those secrets that I can’t tell.

Yeah sure I'm drunk

I tried everything
I kissed a whore
Played a lord
I pledged my heart to a fencing sword.
I punched few men
Got punched myself
And cleaned my wound with poisoned port.
I hunted down the alley for fight
I knocked on each and every door.
I changed my lovers every night
And stumbled down, drunk to core.
Yet I couldn’t, couldn’t get you
Out of my system, out of me
Though I claim to be drowned in hate
You are all that I can see.
I am in pain, I crave your touch
Still I claim I don’t feel much.
I am crying out loud, shouting your name
I know I’m nuts, I’m turning insane.
Thought drinking would save me then
To forget you and forget this pain.
I drank and drank ten times of two
Forgot my name yet remembered you.
Yeah sure I’m drunk, I’m drunk to core
With every drop I crave you more.
One glass down, I see you smile
Two bottles and I see you here
Ten goes down, I’m calling your name
With strike of twelve, senses threadbare
Yeah sure I’m drunk, I’m drunk to core

With ten times two I crave you more.

Love?? definitely tricky

Don’t talk about eternity darling
Don’t talk about feeling
Someone once said to me
Love can be a tricky thing.

All day’s sighs and all night’s longing
All that talks about possession and belonging
A mild affection there might be and even strong chemistry
But once the spark is gone bebe, rest becomes the history
Millions I love yous and thousand kisses
Doesn’t matter in the end
And trust me when I say I know
Weary old bones never mend.
Spring crush summer friendship autumn love winter fling

Someone once said to me love can be a tricky thing.

Just a whisper

Saturday, October 10, 2015

Let me peel that shadow off you
Let me hold it for a while
Even shadow of yours has that fragrance
That would help me live for a while…..
Let me live in dreams of your smile
Let me breathe in for a while
Even those dreams has that strength
To keep me steady for a while……

I can’t hold onto you I know
You are the coal in hearth while I am the snow
You are a bright star, the legendary heir
I am just an audience; I stare and stare…..

A mile there it is between us
And so many facts that cannot be reversed
But still I would like to share
Some moments with you here and there
Create memories that would help me live
This moment and coming years…..

Oh Yes! I dream of lovely lights
Oh Yes! I dream of beautiful nights
BUT I know you are THE MOON
Where I can’t reach but just can see
But I know you are the song
That I can’t make but just can feel……

Still I took a deadly dare
Still fell into something I fear
I wanted to embrace the raging storm
But see what I got!!
Just a whisper of breeze

Just a whisper in my ear……

In love again

I wake up and force a yawn
And welcome the light, the lovely morn
And turn around to see you sigh
In your sleep with a trace of smile
You seem you’re having a peaceful dream
And your face looks so calm and serene
I smile thanking god for what I gained
Watching you sleep, I fell in love again.

You try to move faster than time
And work work work is what you have on mind
But then you come home with a huge smile
And hug me tight, blow a kiss
Rest your head on my lap
Storing away all your stress in leash
I smile walking on a memory lane
Holding your hands, I fall in love again.

You don’t have a moment to spare
But still you stop to praise my hair
We fight we curse we breakdown
You ask me to leave and turn around
But when you hear me stifle a cry
You come around and hug me tight
I hear you say you will not yell again
I borrow your heat and fall in love again.

Nights are always a fairy-tale
Stormy passion and cries ‘tell-tale’
But someday when you just hold me in sleep
And mumble the words of love in my ear
I close my eyes and savour the touch
I kiss your hooked nose that I love so much
I shake my head as love is insane
Just hearing your heartbeat, I fall in love again.

Let the curtains fall

The golden glow of candle lights
The silvery caress of the moon
The sprinkles of joy within
Seeing your lovely rosy bloom
The blush that stole my breath away
And the desires that you locked away
The tremors running through your spine
Indicates you are just mine….JUST MINE
Tonight just let go, break the rule
Tonight let’s just cross the line
Tonight hold me, don’t shy away
Tonight let me make you mine
Break the propriety, don’t care at all
Blow out candles baby..
Let the curtains fall.

Those mingled breaths and discreet nips
Those sigh of pleasure from trembling lips
Those very traces of innocence
Has made me lose all my sense
I am shattered into million pieces
But still my heart craves your essence
Tonight I died a hundredth time
And got revived with heightened sense
Tonight let go again, break the rule
Tonight let me drown in you
Tonight let there be no line
Baby tonight you are mine, just mine.
Break the propriety, don’t care at all
Blow out candles once again

And baby let the curtains fall.

Nightmare Me

Saturday, August 29, 2015

Yes I am a dreary cold
that will benumb your very soul
Yes I am the hail-storm
that will leave your soul so sore
so helpless and disabled
But like every bad thing that ends;
When the spring comes
and the last traces of snow disappears
I will wither away.

Yes I am the volcano
That will eat you up whole
Yes I am the tornado
That will drag you down the pole
Beneath he ice and freeze you there.
But like every nightmare that goes;
When you open your eyes
and the first rays of sun penetrates
I will disappear.

Someday you’ll be granted your wish

See for yourself how I’ll vanish.

I'm fine and I can

That’s what I ought to be?
A puppet? Yeah may be
to this sanctioned pain
and mind turning ultimately insane.
Turns me on these whistles of dreams
in the misty haze
and tears run down overhill
and over the plains in daze.
Reaching out was the hand I saw
though dipped in blood,
helping me to walk sometimes
And also dragging me to insult.
Sympathy? I don’t crave for it
I’ve had it enough.
I want just a little backing
And may be a bit of love.
Waiting for a knight? No I am not
Just waiting to be free.
Reality might break me down sometimes
but I have my own friend you see.
I feel at home in fantasy
I feel at home in fantasy
So let me live in ecstasy

I feel at home in fantasy.

Happy Birthday

……………............May you……………………
Be benevolent by blessed birthday
Ignite illustrative instinct in you
Joyful be your journey less jammed-up jinx
Abandon abhorrence and aspire authority
Never  never be numb, nostalgia notwithstanding.

………...............be happy always…………………

A Part of You

Your opaque eyes so mysterious
Hooded with some unshed tears
Conceals from me the pain and woe
of the burn inside.
You smile quite serene sweet
which doesn’t reach your eyes
And the laughter which rings through doors
doesn’t bubble inside.
Maybe I am just speculating
May be I am just trying to solve
the puzzle that you yourself are
or maybe I am just trying
trying to be a part
a part of you
yes you and everything that you are.

I called the breeze to pass by you
and wishper you my name
I called the rain again and again
to drain away your pain
I called the stars , the sun, the moon
to brighten up your lane
But oh moon tat brightens my soul
Why don’t you let the moon soothe you?
Maybe I am not what you want
Maybe I will never be
But let me be just a companion
a friend in need.
Yeah I know I sound insane, my woes bizarre
But let me be a part of you

yes you and everything that you are.