Goodbye in whispers...

She opened the curtains, stared outside
the dark night and few scattering lights
beckoned her
her warm brown eyes looked stormy grey
the shine on it lost somewhere
yet moist irises could be seen
she had been shedding some silent tears
she looked at the starry sky
and remembered....yeah remembered....
She remember all those wistful dreams
she remembered all those wistful sighs
she remembered shared fantasies
she remembered those whispers, those smiles

by ten it had been his last call
once again she dialled his number
and stopped herself
she had promised, promise not to be weak
she had promised she wouldn't stall
and he is gone she knows
she knew it, her mind did
and her heart??...what of it???

Shivering in the cold she recalled
the warmth of his smile
the soothing caress of his voice
and how she had craved it
and dreamed of having it all.

She regretted not having hugged him once
but she had known
he had never been hers to hold
yet she remembered the feel of his hand
that gentle touch
that comforted her, took away the pain
at least she got to hold his hands
a memory enough to last long
a memory enough....

She plugged in the songs he sang to her
and closed her eyes, she savoured
his voice
and out of the blue she remembered
remembered the promise, promise she made
to him, to herself
songs deleted messages too
but what could she do
of those memories
of that face
which stayed as an imprint in her memory???

Broken down she crossed tge threshold
she tried getting lost in fog
she let the wind bite her skin
so that she wouldn't feel so much
yet numbness couldn't erase him.

Hours passed yet she stood outside
in the dark chilly night
hugging herself shedding tears
saying goodbye in whispers
hoping that the breeze
would carry it off to him
along with her feelings
and caress his warm skin
in his sleep
in his dreams..