A lover of the nature

Its midnight
and I am walking down a lonely road
staring at the moon and counting stars
trying to find the pattern in their movements
that coincides with mine.

I might look like a ghost
a lonely soul searching for an answer
but no I am not lost
I am just an explorer
and a lover of the nature
trying to find the hidden treasure
that lies within
an old tattered box
somewhere by the bosom
of the mother Earth
hidden just for the child like me
who would preserve it
rather than trying to find the ways
to exploit it further.

The crispy mornings and the burgundy evenings
call out to me
and I can hear the whisper of breeze
and feel the blessings of sun
the shelter of cloud
and see the invitation of the sky
to fly high.

The kisses of rain that showers on me
makes me dream of eternity
among the lush green lea
and the sighs of proud trees.
I drink the dewdrops from the leaves
play hide and seek with the fog
I dance with the tune of wind
and jog along with the storm.

yeah I know I sound crazy
A romantic fool as it seems
But I dont deny that I am a fool
I am in love with the moon
I am in love and I nurture
this love of mine for my nature.

Why is it with you??

why is it with you
I feel alive
even the numbness from the cold
becomes a comfort zone
and the stiffness
melts away.

why is it with you
the distance does not matter
I dont need you to be with me
even knowing that you are so far away
I feel that you are 
Living in me.

why is it with you
I find various reasons to smile
even when there is so much
happening around me
breaking me down
bit by bit.

why is it with you
momentary craziness
means much more to me
than the everlasting tranquility
and violent vendetta.

why is it with you
I laugh at nonsensical jokes
pour down my frustration
and feel
that those depressing notions
are just my virtual entities
and being with you is real...so real.

why is it with you
i feel drunk
even when there isnt a single drop of alcohol
running through my veins
why is it with you
I find me
my lost essence
Why??? Oh!!! Why???

Once upon a time

Far away once upon a time

There was a castle of dream

With diamond turrets and golden glow

And there lived the king

Of mighty power, equivocal strength

Who laid among moonbeams

But all alone….all alone

A darkened soul it seemed.

One day came a gypsy boy

Travelling along the way

He had heard of lonely king

And thought to save the day.

He asked king to choose a wife

And break through the curse

Choose a queen among all

Who can sing a verse

Of magic that would break away

The darkness, guilt and remorse.

The news spread all over the kingdom

That the king is searching a wife

Who can sing like a nightingale

Whose voice is full of life

Parents came with their daughters

From far far away

And then there was this maid

Working with the hay.

The maid worked in the same castle

Where lived the king

She cooked, she washed, she cleaned

And she loved to sing

She was just a plain maiden

Stoutness was her thing

Yet she loved his majesty

Dreamt of wearing his ring.

Then there was her beautiful sister

Who shone like a gold

With golden tresses and sweet smile

Also calculating and bold

She had her clothes done

With everything else sold

Extracted a promise from her sis

Their relation would not be told.

A ball was then announced

Every fair maiden were present

All of them were asked to sing

The verses given to them

Then there was that maid

Doing as she was asked

She wore the green taffeta

Her face concealed and masked.

She sang her verses well

The song rang through the hall

The king was mesmerised

With a smile, he stood tall.

The search was over by then

Choice made, conclusion reached.

At the time of announcement

The sisters were then switched.

Unknown to this switching

The king chose his queen

Unmasked the golden girl

Who wore lemon green.

The maid in the shadow

Shed some silent tears.

She attended to her duties

Forgetting the ring

Subordinating the dreams of hers

To the happiness of king.

She decorated the queen’s room

Cleaned mirrors so high

She looked at her own image

And gave out a long sigh.

‘’No I’ll never be a beauty

I’ll never catch his eye.’’

Resigned to her fate

She started cleaning the slate.

She knew with time

The queen’s heart will grow fonder

And she might even love the king.

And herself a creature in the shadow

Will always remain a maid

A maid who loved to sing.

Just know that I am fine

Whenever out of the blue

You remember something I did

And smile

Just know that I am fine.

Whenever you dream at night

And try to remember the next morn

If you recall even a fragment of it

Just know that I am fine.

Whenever you have that itch

To write some words or verse

Even if you come up with nothing

And say you would try it the next time.

Just know that I am fine.

Whenever you have an outburst

But overcome it with calmness

And say “thank god it didn’t get worse”

Just know that I am fine.

Whenever you get what you want

Gain all that you deserve

Share that happiness with loved ones

And pause to think of me

Just know that I am fine.

Whenever you console someone

Make them smile off their tears

The laughter that you share

Will be carried off to me

And deal with my nightmares

Whenever that happens my friend

Just know that I am fine.

now that I am leaving

I took some flowers

Made a bouquet

A gift of my affection

And lots of congratulations

Of best wishes for coming days

But I couldn’t send it to you

The blooming flowers withered

Its freshness lost somewhere

I can neither save it nor throw away

And I have nothing to say

Now that I am leaving…

I selected some words made a song

With love stored up within me

A token of my appreciation

And lots of attention

Of best wishes for your happiness

But I couldn’t sing it to you

The music lost its magic

Its melody lost somewhere.

I can neither share nor sing it

Now that I am leaving.

somewhere along the way

I was walking alone

Dejected, devastated

Dwindling down the dirty road

Dragging the miseries along.

Though I had a torch in hand

The darkness seemed to grow some more

With every seconds that passed

Bringing me closer to the inevitable end.

When it god hard to move

When I stumbled down

I tried crawling

Searching for a reason to live.

And somewhere along the way

I found you.

I was trying to draw water

From a dried up well

I was trying to lure a cat

Instead I untied the bell

And like a broken shell

And moving through hell

I got used to it.

Used to the nostalgic hazy memories

Used to broken dreams

Used to the passive passions

And pacifying purgatory.

But when it got hard to move

And I fell down

I tried standing up

Searching for ways to laugh

And somewhere along the way

I found you.

I am breaking free

Below the street light at a bus stop

I am reflecting

Turning over the pages of the past

And puffing out smoke.

I am looking at the cigarette

Burning my hands

I let it burn my lungs too.

And reflect.

It seems as if the memories

Good ones though

Are the one backing me off

Towards the darkness that I crave.

And YOU, my friend

Giving me company,

Are trying to pass off

Some of that light you have to me

And I appreciate it

I do really.

You are trying to let me see

That every ending

Is a beginning of a new journey

A new story.

And now I am stealing

Some of the colours off flowers

Some lights off the sun

And painting my dreams.

See I’m moving

No I’m running

Towards the future that I deserve

Towards ecstasy.

I am breaking free

Yeah!!!! Finally!!!

I am breaking free.

have I lost the reason to smile??

I look at the smiling faces of people

All around me is jokes and joy

And with them, here I am all alone

Trying to hold onto the fragments

Of their conversation

And then I realise

I can’t hold onto the joy

Have I lost the reason to smile????

There are so many stories here

Every eye speaks of something within

Every faces have their own worry lines

Still there is smile

Still there is a reason to hold

Yet here all alone

Like a lonely soul

I try reading them; try being a part of them

Searching belongingness; somewhere out of nothingness.

But then I didn’t know

That the emptiness within me is so acute

That I can’t be where I am

And can’t feel anything within.

Have I lost the reason to feel???

Have I lost the reason to fly??

Have I lost the reason to smile??

Even mundane talks has so much fun

That’s what everybody says

Try simplifying all the matters

And then you will see

Everything there is to see

I have heard it repeatedly

I have tried embracing it.

Tried to run, stumbled down

Back on my feet, I tried again.

Moving out of my comfort zone

I tried breaking free

And look at me now!!!!

You can see just the shell of me

Even those freedoms of few moments

Have become burdens so difficult to carry

And so hard to hold on

And here I am walking alone

Searching for a reason to belong

Searching for a reason to fly

Searching for a reason to smile.

I see nothing

Whenever I close my eyes

And try to recall your face

To hold onto the good memories

We have ever had

I come up with nothing.

Whenever I try smiling

Thinking about the dreams I have had

To recall how I have been

Cheerful and joyful being

I just find emptiness

And I feel nothing.

Whenever I try holding on

To the fence I adored

As a child, as a girl

I find it broken

And nobody is there to mend it

And I find nothing.

Whenever I try writing

Of love, of life

Of flowers, moon, butterflies

I look at the world outside

All I see is black and white

And I can think nothing.

Whenever I search for colours

And bursts of laughter

Pretty smiles, lovely voice

My eyesight gets dimmed with time

And though I say I’m fine

I see nothing.

I will be your hope

Try opening up the Pandora's box
and unlock all the grief
release them into the world
and when the joy, the happiness 
ceases to exist
and darkness envelopes everything
in the fog.
From somewhere a light you'll see
illuminating the dark corners
and hope will start germinating.
With alacrity
grab onto it
then and only then you'll know
what a true happiness means.
Then the smile that comes off
will illuminate your soul
when that happens my friend
waving goodbye to the darkness
a candle will burn
and carrying that candle
I'll be walking towards you.
That's when you will find me.
That's how you will find me
smiling at you
and the world in general
embracing you
and disposing off
the Pandora's box again.

walking down the stairs

Even when the ecstasy has faded
and the memory of your voice has become non-existent
still comes a thought
from somewhere within
that you are walking the same way,
doing the same thing,
living the same life that we used to talk about.
And now when you are gone, here all alone
I am walking down the stairs where I first saw you
I am living those memories and remembering you.

Even when the book has been closed
I often turn over the pages of the same chapter
and re-read them (again and again)
and there comes a thought
that you are not
so far away from me than I thought you would be
I see you smiling
your life seems beautiful like it ought to be
Though you are gone, here all alone
I am walking down the stairs where I first saw you
I am living those memories and remembering you.

For me you are mine

Travelling through the dark
searching for my identity
i get tired and lonely
and you with your sweet smile
light up my world.
Your tiny fingers curled up around my hair
Your tiny palms caressing my face
as if you are trying to relocate me
in your 8 months old memory.
This feeling of contentment that you give me
This meaning of life that you show me
These little moments of joy I have in your presence
make it up for every seconds
of torture that I have to go through.

When you cry and call me out
when you fall down and reach for me
when u smile seeing me
and when you kick me with your tiny feet.
I feel happy to live
I feel happy that I have you
lighting up my life
like that faraway moon lights up the night
and gives me a reason to dream.

I love you from my heart
I love you from my soul
I eagerly waited for you to utter your first word
I eagerly waited for your first crawl
I am waiting for you to walk on your feet
walk with your arms wide towards me
oh angel!! How u shine
I adore you darling
though I didn't carry you for the months of nine
whomever your genes might belong to
gor me you are mine..
Oh Syona!! For me you are mine.

Dying Young

The light breaks through the dawn
and I am here with my curtains closed
letting the last remnants of the darkness
envelope me in its cacoon.
I don't want to break free
I am comfortable enough in cold.
I know I look steady
but I'm trembling within.
Still i crave the cold
coz i feel
if I am numb enough
i wouldn't feel
and may be it would help me heal.
I know I am still that child
standing in a dark corner and crying.
I know I am still that frightened soul
afraid to face the light
as it might illuminate everything
that I have kept hidden within me
and thus the darkness is
the only friend I see.
I know might be wrong
but I dont want to be strong.
Let me be, I am dying young.

I will stop missing you

Let me cry for a few more days
let me hold onto u for a while 
and then I'll be fine
with every tears i shed
i will get u out of my system 
with every songs i write
i will get u out of my system
with every sleepless night
with every beat of heart
i will stop missing u
gradually
and hope someday
you will remain in me
like a beautiful dream i lived
and not this painful reminder of loss.

A stranger I know

Do I call him a child??or a man??
I don't know.
He is a man of his own means
but the child within is still dominant it seems.
Oh yes!!! He is mature enough
he knows the world, he has seen it
moved through it.
But it seems he has yet to learn
survival in the mist of retreat
and struggle that goes on
along the submerged coast.
I don't know much of him
he is still a ghost to me
and what I say is what I see
I can tell you one thing though
he smiles like a sunglow
sugary sweet, a stranger I know...

Do I call him a friend??or a foe??
I don't know
he is neither my enemy nor my friend
A,stranger he is and so shall he remain
he teases you mercilessly through your tears
and grins without a trace of regret
he will let you open up
yet keep himself bound in cage.
Mysterious?? No he seems not
Conversationalist ?? Yes definitely.
Well the real him, I've yet to see
who he is I've yet to know
what I know is what he shows
I can tell you one thing though
he wouldn't let you feel low
and ask you to go with the flow.
Exasperating, a stranger I know

good night

moody madness made memorable floric fun flirts around night nimbles nip by nip sleep sails sound n sweet

god graces goodnight dandelion dreams waves welcome

besmeared virtue

Chaste chalice, what I if not be?
A fair maiden, though a nymph to thee
how hast thou fared? and how I be
besmeared
virtue
beneath
unscathed
authority...

Though clandestine, seems it to me
thy world knows and bows to thee
wench drenched in the mystic rain
of scandal, tale thy world claims
verses of love, am I now?
Do tell if worldly I ought to be
Fallen feathers is all I see
besmeared
virtue
beneath
unscathed
authority......

Beware I am scary

oh this heavenly smell of
earth
....below the crust n just above
the core
....i am the
volcano
....embrace me n u r
DEAD
.......my arms might strangle u
and breath might scorch u
..I .am not a
torch
...I am a blazing fire
....
Beneath the space and above the
sky
.....I am the vacuum...
 Inhale me i will
take your life..... 
With a venom on my
spirit i seek u out....
bloodthirsty me
bone-weary
 your battered soul that i
feed on.... 
Kneel down bow to
me....
Acknowledge your death...NOW

Ask Me

Ask me and I'll strip for you

Pay me and I 'll dance nude.

They call me prostitute

but I call myself a performer

an entertainer 

I exchange pleasure

with those who seek me out,

I feed their hunger.

They might call me obtuse

But I call myself a woman with an attitude.

I can be a party thrower,

I can be a show stopper.

I might not know them as a whole person,

but I know most of their secrets

that they share in the aftermath

of the pleasure I give them.

They call me a whore, a mistress

But I call myself magical

who gives them the taste of immorality

and lock them in a trance of heaven.

They might call me obtuse

But I call myself a woman with an attitude.

I am somebody's first fantasy

I am also somebody's forbidden dreams

I am definitely the first of many young men

who come lolling their tongues

for the first taste of forbidden vintage

I am a teacher

who help them.learn

the ancient language of love.

They might call me a sinner

But I call myself a lover, a giver

bestowing upon them

the means of satiation

They might call me filthy shit

But I am not ashamed of it.

They might call me obtuse

But I call myself a woman with an attitude.

A damn impressive attitude. 

Goodbye in whispers...

She opened the curtains, stared outside
the dark night and few scattering lights
beckoned her
her warm brown eyes looked stormy grey
the shine on it lost somewhere
yet moist irises could be seen
she had been shedding some silent tears
she looked at the starry sky
and remembered....yeah remembered....
She remember all those wistful dreams
she remembered all those wistful sighs
she remembered shared fantasies
she remembered those whispers, those smiles

by ten it had been his last call
once again she dialled his number
and stopped herself
she had promised, promise not to be weak
she had promised she wouldn't stall
and he is gone she knows
she knew it, her mind did
and her heart??...what of it???

Shivering in the cold she recalled
the warmth of his smile
the soothing caress of his voice
and how she had craved it
and dreamed of having it all.

She regretted not having hugged him once
but she had known
he had never been hers to hold
yet she remembered the feel of his hand
that gentle touch
that comforted her, took away the pain
at least she got to hold his hands
a memory enough to last long
a memory enough....

She plugged in the songs he sang to her
and closed her eyes, she savoured
his voice
and out of the blue she remembered
remembered the promise, promise she made
to him, to herself
songs deleted messages too
but what could she do
of those memories
of that face
which stayed as an imprint in her memory???

Broken down she crossed tge threshold
she tried getting lost in fog
she let the wind bite her skin
so that she wouldn't feel so much
yet numbness couldn't erase him.

Hours passed yet she stood outside
in the dark chilly night
hugging herself shedding tears
saying goodbye in whispers
hoping that the breeze
would carry it off to him
along with her feelings
and caress his warm skin
in his sleep
in his dreams..

:) :) :) SMILE :) :) :)

A very dear friend of mine wrote it...haha not for me but i so wish it had been for me..anyways i fell in love with this poem and so couldn't help from storing it in my journal.

When life pulls you down

Makes you beg for a moment of happiness

A moment of joy…until you get so tired

Remember you have a friend

who will give you a reason to smile…

When pain grips you, brings you down on your knees

Until you no longer can breathe

Remember you have a friend

who will give you a reason not to grieve.

When anger/ love clouds your judgement

Like it does to everyone including me

Remember you have a friend

who will help you see.

When you have done all that is needed to be done

Travelled places that you have always wanted to

Met people and mesmerised them like you did to me

And if you ever feel lonely

You don’t have to walk a mile

Remember you have a friend just a thought away

Spreading his arms wide

Waiting to greet you with a smile….. J J J J

Let me sleep

Night screams with me at the dawn break

And breaks into pieces those desires I have

Cause the light that comes with the morning

Brings with it the reality I am born with.

The dream become nuisance, the wishes seems futile

The chances of survival seems so deem

That I wonder what’s next now

Will I survive?? Will I die???

I am tired of anticipating the outcome

Tired of believing in myself

Tired of circle of needs and wants

And tired of defending myself

So just let me sleep now

Just let me sleep.

Come take me home

Momma !! let me rest again
Rest my head on your bosom
Momma let me brush off
All those tears you shed.

I know I have been bad
I could never be the daughter you wanted
I smoked, I drank, I kicked etiquette
I ignored you, I showed my attitude
But momma!! I’m trapped in dark
Inside this enchanted castle of immorality
I see the moon far away
And the windows are locked
Barred to me
I am caged in insanity
And I know you are the only one who can guide me to light.
Momma!! Give me your hand
Reach me out, once again find me..
I am lost….I am lost
I crave your love, I crave your touch…

Momma!! Do you hear me??
Do you hear my plea???
Your child is innocent no more
Your child is now a corrupted soul
Fallen, hurt by ineptitude
Bleeding, crying, calling out your name
Momma!! I know you are disappointed in me
I know I hurt you
But now I promise I will make it up to you
Just let this moment of insanity pass
Help me deal with it
Help me make you love me again…
If only….if only you knew how much I love you…..

I am still the child that you held
Carried nine months in your womb
Albeit rumpled and corrupted
Still you can find the traces of old me…
Momma!! Please momma!!
Let me rest in your bosom
Let me brush off the tears you shed
Let me once again rest my head
Let me hug you again
Hug me like you used to
Love me like you used to
Help me dream again..
Momma!!! Here I feel so numb
Momma!! Please come take me home.

Then came you

Never thought about karma

Never thought I wouldn’t achieve

Whatever I wish to be.

I broke few things, few hearts

But nothing I couldn’t fix or make

The weather had never been calm,

But nothing that I couldn’t take.

Then came you

As a lightening that strikes the soul

And ignite all the forbidden dreams

As a breeze before the storm

And left me with a tingling skin.

The rope slipped from my hand

And the kite flew away

Soaring high

Up above the sky

Leaving boundaries, weaving dreams

And here I am standing

Watching it fly

Towards you

Without any means to stop it.

I stood as a bystander

Of this course my heart took

And though there were many boundaries

I crossed them, stepped on them

And followed my heart

Which led me to you.

I know I shouldn’t wish

I know I shouldn’t reach out.

There are many things holding me back

Yet madness is where I’m out and about.

Even knowing it I can’t let you go

I am not ready yet

I need to hold you once

I need to rest my head

And feel your heart beat for me.

I need your smile, yeah I need to see

So before I leave, leave you for good

I need a moment to remember you by

So before I leave, leave you for good

Will you give me a final goodbye???

youuuur smile

Every time you smile

I leave a part of me with you

Your smile locks in me the joy

That comes forth as a smile

On my lips.

Throughout the vigorous beating of heart

And trembling limbs

I watch you silently through the door

Waiting for you to turn your head

And smile at me

That leaves me craving for more, even more.

I wish I could shout out loud

I wish I could acknowledge it

Carve you in my memory

And leave this game

Of hide and seek.

From a corner I watch you move

I wait and wait for a glimpse of you

Though I can’t hold, I can’t kiss you

When I don’t see you, I really miss you.

I don't dwell in fantasies

There’s a wall between us

A wall so strong

And no one can break it down

There’s a mile between us

And I can’t reach you

Or cross this distance

Even when you are

Just by my side.

You are the forbidden fruit

That I can’t taste

Yet I’m being induced

By the green serpent

But I’ll not bow down, I’ll not try

I’ll not dream of you and me

As it was never meant to be

And I don’t dwell in fantasies.

Why fall in the lake

When you know that the water runs deep

And you might drown??

Why enter into the storm

When you know the force is strong

And you are in it all alone??

All I’m allowed is sneak-peek

Discreet glances and smile

All I’m allowed are few moments

And savour it for a while..

So I’ll not bow down, I’ll not try

I’ll not dream of you and me

As it was never meant to be

And I don’t dwell in fantasies.

A dreamer?? Yes I am

The thunderclaps calls me in

Your trembling lips are inviting

The rain sparkles

Like a dew drop

On your luminous skin

And I wish I could be that rain

I won’t even mind falling

From the clouds

To reach you

And melt away.

The cold winter nights, so lonely

And I see you shivering

The fog moves about

Caressing your skin

And I wish I could be that quilt

I wont even mind rolling

With you on the bed

And share my heat.

Wondering is all I can do

Seeing that lovely rosy hue

I know I’m in love with spring

When the flowers bloom

And the treasure of juicy nectar

Calls out to all the bees in hive

I, a lonely drone,

Up all alone

Stare at you

Waiting and waiting……

Oh! Yes I dream, I dream all night

I dream of you, I dream of light

And in my dream yes I do love

Though here right now I can’t speak up

Can’t confess what I feel

Though I wish I could steal

You away from you

And make you mine

And create a tale so divine.

Call me a dreamer, call me a fool

I accept that I’m fool for you

So wherever this foolishness leads

I will follow

I won’t even mind

The thorns scattered

Or being torn and tattered.

I will crawl to you if I must

And die happily in your arms.

Secret that I can't tell

I am here in the arms of somebody

Trying to hold onto my old life

Joining back the pieces of old dreams

That seems so fake day by day.

And there you are with somebody else

Starting your life anew

It was meant to be I knew

Yet I couldn’t stay away.

Watching you go saying goodbye is hell

You are my secret that I can’t tell.

I don’t know when it started

You started to mean more to me

On a desperate attempt to hold me back

I turned the locks in and threw the key.

But even the doors of past

Even the reality of future

Turned out to me meek, do fragile

I pushed everything out of my thoughts

And embraced these feelings for a while

This road between right and wrong is hell

You’re my secret that I can’t tell.

Those lullaby songs that you sang to me

Those nightly whispers weren’t meant to be

I paved my own way towards my doom

And you are about to become a groom

I have somebody waiting for me

With somebody else you are meant to be

But these dreams just won’t go away

Even when in them I can’t dwell.

The reality where I live in is hell

You’re my secret that I can’t tell.

So here’s the end of those lovely dreams

So here’s the end of the lovely tale

of those secrets that I can’t tell.

Yeah sure I'm drunk

I tried everything

I kissed a whore

Played a lord

I pledged my heart to a fencing sword.

I punched few men

Got punched myself

And cleaned my wound with poisoned port.

I hunted down the alley for fight

I knocked on each and every door.

I changed my lovers every night

And stumbled down, drunk to core.

Yet I couldn’t, couldn’t get you

Out of my system, out of me

Though I claim to be drowned in hate

You are all that I can see.

I am in pain, I crave your touch

Still I claim I don’t feel much.

I am crying out loud, shouting your name

I know I’m nuts, I’m turning insane.

Thought drinking would save me then

To forget you and forget this pain.

I drank and drank ten times of two

Forgot my name yet remembered you.

Yeah sure I’m drunk, I’m drunk to core

With every drop I crave you more.

One glass down, I see you smile

Two bottles and I see you here

Ten goes down, I’m calling your name

With strike of twelve, senses threadbare

Yeah sure I’m drunk, I’m drunk to core

With ten times two I crave you more.

Love?? definitely tricky

Don’t talk about eternity darling

Don’t talk about feeling

Someone once said to me

Love can be a tricky thing.

All day’s sighs and all night’s longing

All that talks about possession and belonging

A mild affection there might be and even strong chemistry

But once the spark is gone bebe, rest becomes the history

Millions I love yous and thousand kisses

Doesn’t matter in the end

And trust me when I say I know

Weary old bones never mend.

Spring crush summer friendship autumn love winter fling

Someone once said to me love can be a tricky thing.

Just a whisper

Let me peel that shadow off you

Let me hold it for a while

Even shadow of yours has that fragrance

That would help me live for a while…..

Let me live in dreams of your smile

Let me breathe in for a while

Even those dreams has that strength

To keep me steady for a while……

I can’t hold onto you I know

You are the coal in hearth while I am the snow

You are a bright star, the legendary heir

I am just an audience; I stare and stare…..

A mile there it is between us

And so many facts that cannot be reversed

But still I would like to share

Some moments with you here and there

Create memories that would help me live

This moment and coming years…..

Oh Yes! I dream of lovely lights

Oh Yes! I dream of beautiful nights

BUT I know you are THE MOON

Where I can’t reach but just can see

But I know you are the song

That I can’t make but just can feel……

Still I took a deadly dare

Still fell into something I fear

I wanted to embrace the raging storm

But see what I got!!

Just a whisper of breeze

Just a whisper in my ear……

In love again

I wake up and force a yawn

And welcome the light, the lovely morn

And turn around to see you sigh

In your sleep with a trace of smile

You seem you’re having a peaceful dream

And your face looks so calm and serene

I smile thanking god for what I gained

Watching you sleep, I fall in love again.

You try to move faster than time

And work work work is what you have on mind

But then you come home with a huge smile

And hug me tight, blow a kiss

Rest your head on my lap

Storing away all your stress in leash

I smile walking on a memory lane

Holding your hands, I fall in love again.

You don’t have a moment to spare

But still you stop to praise my hair

We fight we curse we breakdown

You ask me to leave and turn around

But when you hear me stifle a cry

You come around and hug me tight

I hear you say you will not yell again

I borrow your heat and fall in love again.

Nights are always a fairy-tale

Stormy passion and cries ‘tell-tale’

But someday when you just hold me in sleep

And mumble the words of love in my ear

I close my eyes and savour the touch

I kiss your hooked nose that I love so much

I shake my head as love is insane

Just hearing your heartbeat, I fall in love again.

Let the curtains fall

The golden glow of candle lights

The silvery caress of the moon

The sprinkles of joy within

Seeing your lovely rosy bloom

The blush that stole my breath away

And the desires that you locked away

The tremors running through your spine

Indicates you are just mine….JUST MINE

Tonight just let go, break the rule

Tonight let’s just cross the line

Tonight hold me, don’t shy away

Tonight let me make you mine

Break the propriety, don’t care at all

Blow out candles baby..

Let the curtains fall.

Those mingled breaths and discreet nips

Those sigh of pleasure from trembling lips

Those very traces of innocence

Has made me lose all my sense

I am shattered into million pieces

But still my heart craves your essence

Tonight I died a hundredth time

And got revived with heightened sense

Tonight let go again, break the rule

Tonight let me drown in you

Tonight let there be no line

Baby tonight you are mine, just mine.

Break the propriety, don’t care at all

Blow out candles once again

And baby let the curtains fall.

Nightmare Me

Yes I am a dreary cold

that will benumb your very soul

Yes I am the hail-storm

that will leave your soul so sore

so helpless and disabled

But like every bad thing that ends;

When the spring comes

and the last traces of snow disappears

I will wither away.

Yes I am the volcano

That will eat you up whole

Yes I am the tornado

That will drag you down the pole

Beneath he ice and freeze you there.

But like every nightmare that goes;

When you open your eyes

and the first rays of sun penetrates

I will disappear.

Someday you’ll be granted your wish

See for yourself how I’ll vanish.

I'm fine and I can

That’s what I ought to be?

A puppet? Yeah may be

to this sanctioned pain

and mind turning ultimately insane.

Turns me on these whistles of dreams

in the misty haze

and tears run down overhill

and over the plains in daze.

Reaching out was the hand I saw

though dipped in blood,

helping me to walk sometimes

And also dragging me to insult.

Sympathy? I don’t crave for it

I’ve had it enough.

I want just a little backing

And may be a bit of love.

Waiting for a knight? No I am not

Just waiting to be free.

Reality might break me down sometimes

but I have my own friend you see.

I feel at home in fantasy

I feel at home in fantasy

So let me live in ecstasy

I feel at home in fantasy.

Happy Birthday

……………............May you……………………

Be benevolent by blessed birthday

Ignite illustrative instinct in you

Joyful be your journey less jammed-up jinx

Abandon abhorrence and aspire authority

Never  never be numb, nostalgia notwithstanding.

………...............be happy always…………………

A Part of You

Your opaque eyes so mysterious

Hooded with some unshed tears

Conceals from me the pain and woe

of the burn inside.

You smile quite serene sweet

which doesn’t reach your eyes

And the laughter which rings through doors

doesn’t bubble inside.

Maybe I am just speculating

May be I am just trying to solve

the puzzle that you yourself are

or maybe I am just trying

trying to be a part

a part of you

yes you and everything that you are.

I called the breeze to pass by you

and wishper you my name

I called the rain again and again

to drain away your pain

I called the stars , the sun, the moon

to brighten up your lane

But oh moon tat brightens my soul

Why don’t you let the moon soothe you?

Maybe I am not what you want

Maybe I will never be

But let me be just a companion

a friend in need.

Yeah I know I sound insane, my woes bizarre

But let me be a part of you

yes you and everything that you are.

If We Meet Again

Even though I can’t own your heart

Even though we are so far apart

Someday,….if someday we are to meet

Then

Would you smile at me?

Even though for you this heart beats

Even though you have your heart on lease

Someday…if someday we are to meet

Then

Would you laugh with me?

I know you are just a wish, a dream

And though ‘love love’ my heart screams

You are not mine and will never be

Till the end of eternity……

But someday if we are to meet

By the corner around the street

Would you let me hold your hand?

Would you give me another chance?

To show my pleasure laced with pain

As we might never meet again.