what am i within?

I crawled out of the dream
Staring at the dark
And closed my eyes
Waiting for the nightmare to begin again.

I felt like I was alone
A mere fish in the home of sharks
Swimming in tears,piercing thorns against my chest
And growing insane.

Even my wish turned out to b a sword
Wid the blade so sharp
I was knocked off by a downpour
When al I wanted was a soothing rain.

I shut down my anticipation
Deep down my hopelessness left a mark
I m nothing outside,I know m nothing.
Who m i?what m I within???

A human,i dnt feel lyk one.
A monster,no I cant be
Wats my lyf,wat is its meaning?
Who m i?what m I within????