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besmeared virtue

Chaste chalice, what I if not be?
A fair maiden, though a nymph to thee
how hast thou fared? and how I be
besmeared
virtue
beneath
unscathed
authority...

Though clandestine, seems it to me
thy world knows and bows to thee
wench drenched in the mystic rain
of scandal, tale thy world claims
verses of love, am I now?
Do tell if worldly I ought to be
Fallen feathers is all I see
besmeared
virtue
beneath
unscathed
authority......

Beware I am scary

oh this heavenly smell of
earth
....below the crust n just above
the core
....i am the
volcano
....embrace me n u r
DEAD
.......my arms might strangle u
and breath might scorch u
..I .am not a
torch
...I am a blazing fire
....
Beneath the space and above the
sky
.....I am the vacuum...
 Inhale me i will
take your life..... 
With a venom on my
spirit i seek u out....
bloodthirsty me
bone-weary
 your battered soul that i
feed on.... 
Kneel down bow to
me....
Acknowledge your death...NOW

Ask Me

Ask me and I'll strip for you

Pay me and I 'll dance nude.

They call me prostitute

but I call myself a performer

an entertainer 

I exchange pleasure

with those who seek me out,

I feed their hunger.

They might call me obtuse

But I call myself a woman with an attitude.

I can be a party thrower,

I can be a show stopper.

I might not know them as a whole person,

but I know most of their secrets

that they share in the aftermath

of the pleasure I give them.

They call me a whore, a mistress

But I call myself magical

who gives them the taste of immorality

and lock them in a trance of heaven.

They might call me obtuse

But I call myself a woman with an attitude.

I am somebody's first fantasy

I am also somebody's forbidden dreams

I am definitely the first of many young men

who come lolling their tongues

for the first taste of forbidden vintage

I am a teacher

who help them.learn

the ancient language of love.

They might call me a sinner

But I call myself a lover, a giver

bestowing upon them

the means of satiation

They might call me filthy shit

But I am not ashamed of it.

They might call me obtuse

But I call myself a woman with an attitude.

A damn impressive attitude. 

Goodbye in whispers...

She opened the curtains, stared outside
the dark night and few scattering lights
beckoned her
her warm brown eyes looked stormy grey
the shine on it lost somewhere
yet moist irises could be seen
she had been shedding some silent tears
she looked at the starry sky
and remembered....yeah remembered....
She remember all those wistful dreams
she remembered all those wistful sighs
she remembered shared fantasies
she remembered those whispers, those smiles

by ten it had been his last call
once again she dialled his number
and stopped herself
she had promised, promise not to be weak
she had promised she wouldn't stall
and he is gone she knows
she knew it, her mind did
and her heart??...what of it???

Shivering in the cold she recalled
the warmth of his smile
the soothing caress of his voice
and how she had craved it
and dreamed of having it all.

She regretted not having hugged him once
but she had known
he had never been hers to hold
yet she remembered the feel of his hand
that gentle touch
that comforted her, took away the pain
at least she got to hold his hands
a memory enough to last long
a memory enough....

She plugged in the songs he sang to her
and closed her eyes, she savoured
his voice
and out of the blue she remembered
remembered the promise, promise she made
to him, to herself
songs deleted messages too
but what could she do
of those memories
of that face
which stayed as an imprint in her memory???

Broken down she crossed tge threshold
she tried getting lost in fog
she let the wind bite her skin
so that she wouldn't feel so much
yet numbness couldn't erase him.

Hours passed yet she stood outside
in the dark chilly night
hugging herself shedding tears
saying goodbye in whispers
hoping that the breeze
would carry it off to him
along with her feelings
and caress his warm skin
in his sleep
in his dreams..

:) :) :) SMILE :) :) :)

A very dear friend of mine wrote it...haha not for me but i so wish it had been for me..anyways i fell in love with this poem and so couldn't help from storing it in my journal.

When life pulls you down

Makes you beg for a moment of happiness

A moment of joy…until you get so tired

Remember you have a friend

who will give you a reason to smile…

When pain grips you, brings you down on your knees

Until you no longer can breathe

Remember you have a friend

who will give you a reason not to grieve.

When anger/ love clouds your judgement

Like it does to everyone including me

Remember you have a friend

who will help you see.

When you have done all that is needed to be done

Travelled places that you have always wanted to

Met people and mesmerised them like you did to me

And if you ever feel lonely

You don’t have to walk a mile

Remember you have a friend just a thought away

Spreading his arms wide

Waiting to greet you with a smile….. J J J J

Let me sleep

Night screams with me at the dawn break

And breaks into pieces those desires I have

Cause the light that comes with the morning

Brings with it the reality I am born with.

The dream become nuisance, the wishes seems futile

The chances of survival seems so deem

That I wonder what’s next now

Will I survive?? Will I die???

I am tired of anticipating the outcome

Tired of believing in myself

Tired of circle of needs and wants

And tired of defending myself

So just let me sleep now

Just let me sleep.

Come take me home

Momma !! let me rest again
Rest my head on your bosom
Momma let me brush off
All those tears you shed.

I know I have been bad
I could never be the daughter you wanted
I smoked, I drank, I kicked etiquette
I ignored you, I showed my attitude
But momma!! I’m trapped in dark
Inside this enchanted castle of immorality
I see the moon far away
And the windows are locked
Barred to me
I am caged in insanity
And I know you are the only one who can guide me to light.
Momma!! Give me your hand
Reach me out, once again find me..
I am lost….I am lost
I crave your love, I crave your touch…

Momma!! Do you hear me??
Do you hear my plea???
Your child is innocent no more
Your child is now a corrupted soul
Fallen, hurt by ineptitude
Bleeding, crying, calling out your name
Momma!! I know you are disappointed in me
I know I hurt you
But now I promise I will make it up to you
Just let this moment of insanity pass
Help me deal with it
Help me make you love me again…
If only….if only you knew how much I love you…..

I am still the child that you held
Carried nine months in your womb
Albeit rumpled and corrupted
Still you can find the traces of old me…
Momma!! Please momma!!
Let me rest in your bosom
Let me brush off the tears you shed
Let me once again rest my head
Let me hug you again
Hug me like you used to
Love me like you used to
Help me dream again..
Momma!!! Here I feel so numb
Momma!! Please come take me home.

Then came you

Never thought about karma

Never thought I wouldn’t achieve

Whatever I wish to be.

I broke few things, few hearts

But nothing I couldn’t fix or make

The weather had never been calm,

But nothing that I couldn’t take.

Then came you

As a lightening that strikes the soul

And ignite all the forbidden dreams

As a breeze before the storm

And left me with a tingling skin.

The rope slipped from my hand

And the kite flew away

Soaring high

Up above the sky

Leaving boundaries, weaving dreams

And here I am standing

Watching it fly

Towards you

Without any means to stop it.

I stood as a bystander

Of this course my heart took

And though there were many boundaries

I crossed them, stepped on them

And followed my heart

Which led me to you.

I know I shouldn’t wish

I know I shouldn’t reach out.

There are many things holding me back

Yet madness is where I’m out and about.

Even knowing it I can’t let you go

I am not ready yet

I need to hold you once

I need to rest my head

And feel your heart beat for me.

I need your smile, yeah I need to see

So before I leave, leave you for good

I need a moment to remember you by

So before I leave, leave you for good

Will you give me a final goodbye???

youuuur smile

Every time you smile

I leave a part of me with you

Your smile locks in me the joy

That comes forth as a smile

On my lips.

Throughout the vigorous beating of heart

And trembling limbs

I watch you silently through the door

Waiting for you to turn your head

And smile at me

That leaves me craving for more, even more.

I wish I could shout out loud

I wish I could acknowledge it

Carve you in my memory

And leave this game

Of hide and seek.

From a corner I watch you move

I wait and wait for a glimpse of you

Though I can’t hold, I can’t kiss you

When I don’t see you, I really miss you.

I don't dwell in fantasies

There’s a wall between us

A wall so strong

And no one can break it down

There’s a mile between us

And I can’t reach you

Or cross this distance

Even when you are

Just by my side.

You are the forbidden fruit

That I can’t taste

Yet I’m being induced

By the green serpent

But I’ll not bow down, I’ll not try

I’ll not dream of you and me

As it was never meant to be

And I don’t dwell in fantasies.

Why fall in the lake

When you know that the water runs deep

And you might drown??

Why enter into the storm

When you know the force is strong

And you are in it all alone??

All I’m allowed is sneak-peek

Discreet glances and smile

All I’m allowed are few moments

And savour it for a while..

So I’ll not bow down, I’ll not try

I’ll not dream of you and me

As it was never meant to be

And I don’t dwell in fantasies.

A dreamer?? Yes I am

The thunderclaps calls me in

Your trembling lips are inviting

The rain sparkles

Like a dew drop

On your luminous skin

And I wish I could be that rain

I won’t even mind falling

From the clouds

To reach you

And melt away.

The cold winter nights, so lonely

And I see you shivering

The fog moves about

Caressing your skin

And I wish I could be that quilt

I wont even mind rolling

With you on the bed

And share my heat.

Wondering is all I can do

Seeing that lovely rosy hue

I know I’m in love with spring

When the flowers bloom

And the treasure of juicy nectar

Calls out to all the bees in hive

I, a lonely drone,

Up all alone

Stare at you

Waiting and waiting……

Oh! Yes I dream, I dream all night

I dream of you, I dream of light

And in my dream yes I do love

Though here right now I can’t speak up

Can’t confess what I feel

Though I wish I could steal

You away from you

And make you mine

And create a tale so divine.

Call me a dreamer, call me a fool

I accept that I’m fool for you

So wherever this foolishness leads

I will follow

I won’t even mind

The thorns scattered

Or being torn and tattered.

I will crawl to you if I must

And die happily in your arms.